First cup of coffee on the deck……
This is the first morning in quite some time that I’ve been able to see the stars. The mornings have either been rainy or so hot and humid that the cloud cover has obliterated them from view.
Today….a calm breeze rustling through the trees, a coolness to the air, a sweet relief from the past week’s oppressiveness……and I feel the oppression lift from me.
I’ve been rather down and out for the past several days…weather related or me related?
I truly think that this is me related…..harboring grudges…..leading to anger and bitterness…robbing me of my joy.
Life goes around this way sometimes when I let the enemy steal my joy. Yes, he will come and try to invade my thought processes, but it is my choice as to whether or not I allow this.
And in the recent past, I have made the wrong choice. Instead of allowing Jesus to pour down His love and joy, His forgiveness, mercy, grace and healing into my life—well, I’ve been wallowing in the lies that have been fed into my mind. In essence, I’ve let him win again.
Satan’s victory over us was put to death at the Cross. Yes, He and his minions are still active, but they no longer have they power they once did. The only way he can obtain victory is if we let him….and sadly, this is what I have done.
We all do this. Someone says something (or does or does not do something) that may hurt us….may even bring up a hurt from the past….and the old lies begin surfacing in our hearts and minds…..lies that we believe because they have such a deep root of pain and bitterness within us.
Instead of turning to God immediately with this, I wallowed in the anger and self pity for a few days.
And now, today–a new beautiful day–I’ve stood on the deck with the first cup of coffee…..
I paused and spoke to God and listened for His answer…..
And there it is….the cool, calming breeze…..the stars in the sky…..the reassurance felt in my heart that I am deeply loved, forgiven, paid for at a great price, chosen by Him…
My heart and mind are once again healed….healed of the lies that I believe about myself…placed there many years ago by others….and I am thankful.
God writes the gospel not in the Bible alone, but on trees and flowers and clouds and stars. ~Author unknown, commonly attributed to Martin Luther
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
Thank You for always being there for me. Thank You for leading me out of the depths into Your Light.